Love And Pain

Pregnancy is seriously not for me. Let just hope I’m better at motherhood.. #19moreweeks #readyornot

1:52 am.. Sleep is for weaklings! Stay up all night!!

1:53 am.. Omg this blanket is from heaven. Sooo sofft..

1:54 am.. I’ll just lay down for a minute and warm up under the covers..

1:55 am.. ZzZzzzzzZzzzzZzzz……ZzZzz

I feel so anxious today. Idk it could be all in my head, but I feel like he is distant sometimes. And I don’t like it. I don’t like feeling like there’s a part of him he doesn’t want me to know.

I hate feeling disabled. It’s like my mind shuts my whole body down. I know I have things I need to do. But I literally can not do them. All I can do is lay in my bed under the covers until the attack ends.

There are so many things in my life that have changed over the last six months, six months ago I wanted to die, I had no dreams or hopes, I just wanted everything to end.. No more pain.. No more tears, and I didn’t care what I would miss out on, I just wanted to end everything. But today my whole world is different. I’m happy, I have someone who I know without a doubt loves me and I love him back just as much. I have dreams.. I dream about getting married, and having kids, I dream about going back to school so I can get a job I love instead of the one I have. I have hopes.. I hope his children whom I love can someday live with us. I hope they never stop loving me either. I hope I can always be their for them.

jor-dangerous:

awkwardnarturtle:

i-mahu:

There’s two types of anger one is dry and the other wet and basically wet anger is when your eyes water and your voice shakes and I hate that cause I feel weak when I’m crying while angry I like dry anger when your face is like stone and your voice is sharp I guess wet anger shows that you care too much and dry anger means you’re done.

This is the best description ever

This hurt

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